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Old Mar 30, 2018, 04:31 AM
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I am triggered I get tunnel vision and it seems like I get super human vision.

I feel like my heart slowed down but when it does pump it pumps explosively. It feels bounding.

I become very light sensitive like I need to put sun glasses on.

I feel like I am shaking like a magnitude 5 earth quake but when I look at my hands they are not shaking like that.

I feel if I do not knock myself unconscious with drugs or bashing my head I will kill myself just to escape everything I am feeling. This is where I panic and desperately call my ex-T.

Everything RubyRae said is what I feel when I am coming down from being triggered. Mainly I feel like I got hit by a truck and am so exhausted I can not concentrate on anything.

"My head feels heavy.

My eyesight is a bit blurry because it feels like too much effort to focus them.

I feel like I'm half asleep,almost like I am sleep walking,like if I don't make a conscious effort to stay present I would drift away .

Conversations with others are off because when they talk to me it's taking a few seconds for their words to sink in. Then I have to think of a response but it's hard to.

Noises are amplified and my reaction to them are over the top"
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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