When I use to do that, I learned (over a great many years time) to figure out what was happening in my actual life to trigger the specific fantasies? If you are not feeling cared for, for example; the feeling bad about yourself because of T1's lack of support and seemingly dismissive actions, what was the fantasy the next chance you got alone?

One thing very positive I see, you did reach out to T2 and he responded well/supportively? You are still in your "life" working hard to make sense of it all and see what you can do. I looked at myself and realized I was doing that, was doing the best I could under current circumstances and focused on those acts and just left my body/mind to do what it felt it had to to "balance" as best it could. I took an observer's stance instead of trying to "fix" what my body/mind know better unconsciously to do. When I worked on the obvious, outer problems of communication and interacting with others/the world, my body/mind gradually did not need to be extreme in the opposite way?

I had fantasies of saving others at the cost of myself and being in hospital in a coma and T visiting me, being the only one who could save me :-) Pretend you are reading your fantasies in a casebook and they are someone else's and don't take them too seriously? Pretend they are dreams (they are in a sense). Do you remember any of your dreams? Mine were very intense and complicated, actually helped me in therapy a whole lot.

All of this work takes time! It took the first however many years to get "messed up" and it will take that long to get unmessed up? Notice the rhythms in life, you don't always feel one way, feelings are like weather and come and go. There is texture to your life, things are changing, you are growing, look at/for those signs? Pounce on the little good things that happen, the times you reach out and someone reaches back to you (like T2), the times when you understand some little thing and it's like a piece of a puzzle falling into place. You know how a puzzle seems so large and chaotic at the beginning but as it is being put together, it gets easier and easier? Therapy was like that to me.