I know we've discussed this before but I think I have a better understanding of it now. Sometimes I wish T could hold me. But that "me" is the child within, not the adult me. The adult me has other touch fantasies, some of a sexual nature.

I know that some people can have a safe hug and it works for him but that would not be the case for me.

The truth is, if he hugged me I would have a heart attack and it would feel like he crossed over a line he shouldn't!! I would not be able to do therapy with him anymore.

Any thoughts on your experience?