Oh god. YES, 99% of psych meds sedate me too. It SUCKS.

For me, being flat is in many ways the same as being depressed. Either way, I don't enjoy life. What were once vivid colors are now shades of grey, what was once beautiful sunshine is now merely just a dull light in the sky, what was once happiness is now apathy.

I don't have much else to add, but I know how you feel. Whether it's depression or flatness, it's pretty much all the same to me. I even get suicidal thoughts when I'm flat, but it's more like, "I never will enjoy life this way. Things WON'T get better as long as I stay on this med. That is a hard fact."

Hope you feel better soon, though. In fact, I'm sure you will. I just hate the agony of this waiting game to see which med cocktail works best.