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Originally Posted by bluebicycle
Oh god. YES, 99% of psych meds sedate me too. It SUCKS.
For me, being flat is in many ways the same as being depressed. Either way, I don't enjoy life. What were once vivid colors are now shades of grey, what was once beautiful sunshine is now merely just a dull light in the sky, what was once happiness is now apathy.
I don't have much else to add, but I know how you feel. Whether it's depression or flatness, it's pretty much all the same to me. I even get suicidal thoughts when I'm flat, but it's more like, "I never will enjoy life this way. Things WON'T get better as long as I stay on this med. That is a hard fact."
Hope you feel better soon, though. In fact, I'm sure you will. I just hate the agony of this waiting game to see which med cocktail works best.
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Spot on, blue. SPOT on. Yes- depression and flatness...I cannot discern the difference between the two; one is the other.
One of my concerns about these past few weeks is that I have had a very occasional, but very unsettling, thoughts of self-destruction.
I think one of the more challenging aspects of having bipolar disorder is that we change so dramatically, so often. That makes an effective medication cocktail especially difficult to find.