I wish you'd never touched me because it's confused me so much. I fear your touch, yet I want it, yet I feel disgusting for wanting it...I feel so wrong and so bad so much of the time...and I know that you know that...I've allowed you to see that and it terrifies me. I can't undo it so I know I need to push on deeper into it and trust that you are there...a safe place. I think I'm ready to go there with you.