Sister I can't say that I've daydreamed or fantasied about my T touching me. I watched the Laura episode of that HBO Treatment show online this week. I think if I had a male therapist, I might have adult fantasies about him too.

Although physical touch is not something I am seeking at the moment, comfort, acceptance, and safety are things I am seeking in my world. I've been thinking a lot about my next session and the anxiety I am feeling about it. Part of me wants to just let everything go--but in actuality this is impossible for me . At one point this week I let myself fantasize about the perfect therapy session. For me I imagined myself curling up in a tight ball in the corner of her office couch, resting my head on the arm rest, closing my eyes, and just speaking the thoughts running through my head. Obviously, in this fantasy, her couch is a different color and has a much nicer pattern. :-)

Well I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in fantasizing about impossibilities.