It’s your choice lanza, and when we say that your desire to slip away into death is, let’s say, not the best path, we, at least I, don’t do it for us. It’s not to save us the grief of losing you from these forums(though you would be greatly missed). We voice our concerns because we fear you may not be thinking straight, or the mental illness itself has taken over your senses.
I can appreciate your sentiment towards your ‘solution’, it’s ultimately up to you and we must respect that, but your idea of this fairytale ending, a neat and tidy demise where no one gets hurt and everyone is happy seems to me...unrealistic.
I hope you find peace lanza, whatever form it takes. We’re just not as excited about it as you.