Sometimes I just lay there until I realize it’s pointless to just lay in bed [emoji848]. Sometimes when I’m in pain from arthritis I might stay longer, but generally I get up for at least an hour or more. Sometimes I end back in bed because I feel tired. This is rare but it has happened.

I think just laying in bed one’s life moves slowly and depression sets in I “HATE DEPRESSION” and a sense of hopelessness (been there done that) it’s a dark hole with absolutely nothing in it but “regret and misery” which often leads to death. I would rather fight this darkness with something different either in my life or live for someone else.

Sometimes it’s ok to take time alone in bed, but I don’t like it if “it takes over.” I rather dictate my future (with my God) than having someone, or something else do it. [emoji254]