I was misdiagnosed with schizoaffective disorder a long time ago. It made no sense to me since I've never hallucinated or had delusions either. I feel ya. I think that clinical psychology and psychiatry still has a long way to go, sometimes. When did you leave the halfway house? How are you doing now? I hope you can see a therapist or someone to help you work through the stuff that's hard to let go. It's hard for me to let go of my own painful memories at times. You're not alone.