I can get the paranoia, I get that it feels really real to you but... why would she have cameras? What could it mean? Why would she be watching you? Its a lot of effort to just spy on someone- why would she go through all that effort just to spy on the dog sitter? She probably has better things to do than that.

Thinking like that- breakig it down- helps ME when I start thinking thoughts that start shooting up ‘maybe’ red flags.

But I know how hard it is when something FEELS real and you sort of know it but sort of dont that it probaby ISNT. Its hard, and its scary, and its frustrating, and you just feel so alone.

Its going to be ok though. It really is. Just, when you start to feel stuff like this... try to just... just- challenge it the best you can- dont be too hard on yourself... but just... just- try to- take some deep breaths. Try to sit back and just- take it easy.

You are going to be fine, but if you can find some way to calm down, to get in your own space- AWAY from all just for a bit- reorient yoursel- and then maybe itll be easier to face all these scary maybes- when you can have your own place inside you that is just- free from fear and just- safe