Yeah, but she is a lifelong friend. I won't abandon her. I will simply lower my expectations. She did respond to my email today so that is positive.

I feel sorry for her because she has a lot to be grateful for but she doesn't see it.

She put down CBT (Cognitive Behavior Therapy) but it has actually helped me to clean up some cognitive distortions.

As well, I have become active spiritually and have joined a congregation and it is helping me socially and community-wise.

I think the lesson is...not to use our friends as therapists...and not to let them use as that way.

As long as my friend is responsive I will never abandon the friendship. However, this is head's up to me to apply more self-care in my life.