Finally got some sleep. It took being exhausted from yard work, having my fiance with me and some weed. It was peaceful until my fiance went back home, then I kept tossing and turning and having intense anxiety. Still, I got some rest.

Anyone else ever feel worse after a nap?

Anyway, yeah, that's how I've been dealing with things. Doing work around the house and smoking. I know I've been told not to smoke because it makes psychosis worse (if that's even what's going on) but it's actually keeping things from being so damn scary. Even with it, I still feel depressed and anxious, I just care a little less that I am, you know? I've accepted that there aren't cameras in the house watching me. My friend helped me look for them and we couldn't find any. So, unless they're that well hidden, I don't think there are any. That's something, I guess.

I'm still confused, just less anxious about it. Pretty sure the world I'm living in is false. I really don't know. I'm just sort of going with whatever is happening. It's the only way I can successfully survive this inter-dimensional world. That's hard to explain, though, and I'm not even 100% sure that it's real, so I haven't taken any action. I just know it's what I'm experiencing.

Am I crazy?