I've only been smoking for a couple days. I've been seeing different dimensions and stuff for... I actually don't know. I know it's been more than a couple days, though. If anything, I smoked to understand what I was seeing. I don't know if that makes sense or if it's even a good idea. I wish it was legal here, too.

I don't have any xanax or anything. Closest thing that I have is vistiral, it's not a benzo which is preferable for me and my doc. Things happen even when I don't smoke, but weed makes it less scary.

Honestly, I'll probably quit smoking anyway. After all, what's the point if I'm still suicidal? It's not making that go away. Because at the end of the day, I just want me to go away.