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I'm so sorry you are feeling this way and that hubby wasn't more compassionate. Could he be feeling scared and frustrated about your papsmear and having to see the specialist and doesn't know how to express himself properly? Maybe he is lashing out in a difficult way because he doesn't know what or how to discuss his feelings?

I'm not trying to stick up for hubby......what he said was not nice at all. I'm just thinking that sometimes when we can't express what we are afraid of, we do tend to lash out in different ways no?

The world would not be better off without you hon. I hope that deep down inside you know that! I'm so sorry you are having to go through all of this. Remember that education can be your friend in all of this. Pick your doctors and caregiver's minds and ask all the questions you need to about possibilities (good ones too!).

Both my daughters and I have had abnormal papsmears...and cancer also runs in the family. What we had was tissue that was considered pre-cancerous and we had procedures to remove those cells. The procedure for detection is called a colposcopy and here's a link to it -

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Colposcopy

I will keep you in my prayers and thoughts hon. I know how hard it is to stop from thinking the worst. It's very possible this is NOT the worst. I hope you can go with that thought!


sabby