I had started with a new therapist a few years back. We worked together very well for about 6 months then one day she sprang it on me she would be retiring. I felt abandoned but I also knew she was very tired and working was difficult for her. I didn’t go to my next session or the next because it was easier for me to leave rather than she leave me.
I am sorry your t is retiring, it brings up so many painful emotions. I hope you can process the loss with your t or another t