One of my unfortunate suspicions about therapy and mental health treatment is the lies - “depression is a sign of strength”, “seeking mental health treatment is a sign of strength”. Not that it’s really a lie, as it can make one feel better. But when I went to therapy and was on medication when I was a teen, I noticed I still lack allot of things - emotional flow, quick and speedy thoughts during conversations. It’s as if there’s a boundary. Not to mention my emotional growth ruined by medication, you think I’m just OK with it? It’s one of the many reasons why I hate my life - a victim mentality I never asked for!

I can find too many reasons why seeking treatment is a sign of weakness and not strength. I am a very objective person so as harsh as this may sound to some, I personally don’t see otherwise. Come on let’s be honest - no social status and no career satisfactions, how is that strength? It’s not!

My family prevents my growth, or just does not support it. Because of that I can’t grow and always end up being weak. And yes, having people to support your growth is important, you can’t do it alone

I also got sick of listening to too many points of views in suicide hotlines for instance, throwing charming but shallow wisdom sentences like “social skills is like exercise - you have to keep it up”, which sends feelings of regret as a side effect