That’s not the problem. The therapist discouraged my spirit. When I read it all I agree. Then that therapist appears and belittingly puts me down from the idea and scolds me

I want to succeed but I just can’t trust hard work anymore. Not that I don’t want to work hard, but therapist would always say “there’s allot of work to do”.
I agree, but I just don’t trust THEIR work in all this. My son of a ***** ex therapist said “it takes your commitment”, and said “you can’t expect anything to happen when there are no weekly meetings with holes in the middle” (because that a**hole took vacations so he’s putting more responsibility on me and as usual resolves his sorry ***** from any)