Thanks Ray and D.
I have cravings now and again but this time was a little different and a little more intense. I think because normally I just crave the drugs and not the "scene". I got over it after a couple hours because, let's face it, the old days really did suck and I don't really want to go back to that.
Like many a junkie, at various stages of recovery I think I've got the whole thing licked. I mean hey, I've got seven years sober so I should be over it, right? Wrong. Moments like this one pop up out of nowhere, triggered by things as banal as VH1 or a scene in a movie, and I'm reminded that it's never over.
Maybe I should start going to AA again. It's been a couple of years. Just, ya know, to reconnect with the rehab crowd.
Thanks for the feedback. You guys rule.
Cyran0
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Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD (childhood physical/sexual abuse), history of drug abuse.
Meds: Zoloft, Lorazapam, Coffee, Cigarettes
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