Thank you both. WW. A fantasy bond is when you you see your relatonship with your parents as great b/c its too hard to really see their flaws b/c you can't take feeling alone and uncared for by the people who love you.

SC: I haven't talked to my therapist about it. I feel like im screwing up so much.. if I say anything shes going to hate me. She's like my only connection with someone who knows my struggles right now. I guess I have a real problem with trusting people are going to be there if i open up. Every time i call her its been taking a week for her to call back. I feel like shes pulling away and its making me so nervous. I just pray God keeps me during this.