There used to be a womans shelter in my hometown that in foot high letters above its door said "WOMENS VICTIM CENTER" I always had a problem with that, as much as I want to support you I feel like I have dis-agree about you being a "survivor" A survivor is someone who is no longer a victim of whatever circumstances they have encountered. It's been processed,understood, and had its teeth pulled much like the difference between a drug addict who has "clean time" as opposed to "recovery time"...one heals, the other supresses only to eventually "burst". you said you feel stuck, I think the reason is that no one see's how traumitized you were by what happened and you feel like you don't have any real basis for your feelings considering the abuse that other people have been thru. but none of that matters, what matters is how YOU feel and whats keeping you from being the best YOU possible...