I feel so lonely. My parents sent me a little owl, a beanie baby. It's cute, but it's too small to hug and it won't hug me back. I need a hug from somebody who cares and feels safe, but that's not going to happen. I wish I had taken you up on your offer of a call this weekend. I don't know what I'd say to you, but it would be so nice to hear your voice right now. I hope I can come in tomorrow and not feel the shame that I felt last time. See you then.