annielovesbacon, I'm really sorry your plans did not turn out exactly as you originally intended. Know that I admire that you took a chance. Someday there will be things you can go after feeling very well and complete to your full satisfaction.

So you know, I twice went to Taiwan but was unable to complete my goals there because of bipolar disorder. However, there are many things I have done in completion since. And yet I also now look back at my stays in Taiwan as significant steps/events. All experiences, short and long, help us develop as adults. Decisions (even seemingly disappointing ones) lead to things we value dearly, even if they are mixed with new challenges.