So many opportunities here where I am. My roommate models a bit and is putting together a BTS video of a shoot. I’m really trying not to tell her I could do some video editing or music composition for her. Producing art for people makes me anxious. I can almost never produce anything I’m proud of. I beat myself up a lot so I have been trying to make productions purely for myself. But what if I need an actor? This could be something for my portfolio too you know? I am worried about this. I really think maybe I should offer to help her with her video.


update: I offered super casually. I don't think she's going to accept, but in the future if I need an actor, maybe she'll say yes.....

I have been trying to apply for safe office jobs.... I don't ever want to do art with the intention of doing it seriously. Painted a bit today. She asked me if I am an artist. I said no, I'm just along for the ride....