I tried posting this on the Internet Travelers Lounge but got no response. I thought I would try posting here:

I'm not sure exactly which community on this website would be appropriate for my situation, if any. Perhaps you can give me some guidence. My husband of 7 years(now ex-husband) became, most likely bi-polar. I'm not sure of his diagnosis because of patient privacy laws. His best friend used to be a psychiatrist so he gave me his opinion after talking to him and he said he is most likely bi-polar. Anyway, during the last two years of our marriage his illness was slowly developing but I did not recognize it since I knew nothing of mental illness. In the end, he walked out of our home, quite suddenly, because one of his dilusions that people were out to kill him & he believed one of the people who was going to kill him lived in the apartment across the way from us. He went to his dad's house to "hideout" & never came back. I went there to "visit" him on many occasions. I tried very hard to understand the whole thing. But, ultimately, he refused to take his medication so I had no choice but to divorece him, especially since I had a teenage daughter from a previous marriage & I found out he was having hyper-sexual fantasies about her. Im leaving out a lot of details about the whole trauma here in the interest of time. Let's just say it was extremely traumatic. My problem is that I've been divorced from him for 3 years. I've moved on & met a wonerful man & am doing better than ever.....except for the part where when the anniversary comes up when he walked out the door, it all comes back to me. All the emotions, I even have nightmares about him. It seemed to hit me harder this year than the previous 2. I am looking for an online group with people who have gone through a similar situation so I can get help working through this. I just want my life back...all of it. Do you have any suggestions? Also, if you know of any books about people who have gone through a similar situation I would be interested in that as well. Thank you.