I needed some support. I feel so lost and hopeless. My ex divorced me after 30 years of marriage about a year and a half ago. I have Bipolar 2 and this has really affected me. I have huge abandonment issues from childhood. I got into a relationship and moved in with my new boyfriend in about 8 months after divorce. I knew it was too soon but I was so depressed and terrified that I would take sleeping pills during the day so I didn't have to face the world. I think because I'm 55 it scares me even more. I think of homelessness. I think if it wasn't for my precious dog Luke I would be dead by now. I'm on disability and I work very part time. I'm realizing it's not fair to my boyfriend about my Bipolar. I told him I have Bipolar and he is pretty supportive but I know he really doesn't get it and it's not up to him to understand. I'm just feeling really scared and isolated.