motogypsy

This sounds not good to live with. I think it is wise of you to stay with your job. It would have been much worse if you had quit and hoped to get a new job easily. Jobs do not grow on trees these days, so please continue to try to search for new ones, but do not allow disappointments for not getting a new one distort your emotions. If you can tell yourself that you are just an ordinary good person who just happens to work at a difficult workplace and that you are an ordinary clever person who understands that you have to wait for the new job chance, one month, three months, two years ...., you will install in yourself positive self expectations and that helps you to feel more self worth.

Try to use some humor: "I'm going to the beasts today again (laugh). I will not let them beat me. I will answer them in polite manner whatever they say and I will let my back and neck be straight."

The humor lifts your emotions and makes you ready for the day at work. To answer polite what ever they say and looking relaxed, will help you to feel better (like as you stand on your feet, while they don't).

Here is a video were you can learn a bit about body language. Train in front of a mirror until you master it. Remember it is not about how you feel, but about how you look and that that position signals self confidence. You can google 'body language' yourself if you need to learn more.



If you make a habit out of doing relaxation exercises regularly, it will be more easy for you to feel relaxed when you need it the most in difficult situations. I'll post relaxation exercises here and you can ofcourse google for such exercises yourself.



Hope this was at least a bit helpful!

Good luck with regard to managing your situation!

PS. If you after trying to adjust yourself to this difficult situation for a while and continues to feel miserable, please contact a therapist.