For the last 3-4 years, I can't really say I've had friends. Acquaintances, sure. But not really friends. No matter how lonely I feel, I just lost the desire to make friends. I've always lost connections when I would start a new chapter in life (like graduating school or starting school/job etc.) I just want nothing to do with my old life and even if I liked the people, I want nothing to do with them. I can't imagine making and keeping friends unless I'm in a job that I plan on keeping the rest of my life and living in a place where I'll never move. So if nothing ever changes, I could comfortably make friends maybe after 1-2 years or so.

But then again, as much as I can be lonely most of the time, making and keeping friends just seems like a ridiculous amount of effort. I kind of prefer just having acquaintances and not getting close to anyone other than the person I'm in a relationship with (since it's too late to not get too close there). Is not having friends going to eventually ruin my relationship? Is there a way to feel less lonely if you just have acquaintances?