Welcome jewels. I am sorry about your ex-husband, but I am glad that not only have you tried reaching out and tried to understand, but you have met a nice man and are *happy*.

Anniversaries are very hard times for people. Why it is harder for you this year than previous years - I don't know. There are a few questions that I'd like to ask, if it's okay with you...

1) Do you see a therapist to help you deal with the traumas?

2) How is your teenage daughter doing?

Although it is easier said then done, I find that giving time (even years) will help - even if it's just a little. Perhaps being with your new beau will help. Try to concentrate on him more.

The people in this site are fantastic and I hope we can help you feel better.

Take care.