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I am a lesbian with a female psychiatrist that I have always kinda crushed on. I am in the midst of a wicked Mixed Manic episode requiring hospitalization. In addition to spending $ we don’t have I was in a constant state of arousal thinking about my PDoc and being an ID10T in her presence. I finally confessed this to my T and PDoc. Neither of them “fired me”. However, I did get suicidal and go in patient for a bit. My PDoc is moving away. I will have a new PDoc that I like, but I cannot deal with my PDoc leaving and I still fantasize about and want her. Have not said anything more and will not act on this because it would be bad for both of us. But how do I stop obsessing over her and get over being heartbroken she is moving away?
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Bipolar 1 mixed manic severe with psychotic features,
Harm OCD
TRAZADONE 150 mg,
DEPAKOTE 500 mg AM / 1000 mg PM,
SEROQUEL 12.5-25 as needed, 50-100 mg PM,
LITHIUM 150 mg PM
N-acetylcysteine (NAC) 1200 AM and PM
 
JR
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