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Originally Posted by Veritastar
Hey, perhaps you can help me identify this problem. After some hard events last year I started feeling disconnected from myself. I don’t have a name for it and hopefully you can help with it. There came a point where I felt like the person I was before last year and the person I am now are almost completely separate. I basically look at my blog, personality, interests, and other stuff I used to identify with and feel like I am a stranger to myself. I’ve gotten a little better with this last year behind me, but I still feel like that person in 2016 is a separate entity. I’m worried that losing the friendship of someone I cared about at the beginning of last year made me break from myself. This is so hard to explain. Hopefully someone understands.
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I see that you are new.... welcome....
Just in case you missed it, there is a disclaimer at the bottom of each page that says psych central cant be a substitute for seeing actual off line treatment providers....
to ......me...... this means that no one here can answer/ tell to the whats, hows, whys of whats going on in you. only your own doctors can do that for you. we are not in your body so we cant possibly know whether whats going on in you is a mental disorder or not.
what we do here is share what we ourselves go through, what our own doctors call things in ourselves and sometimes make suggestions of things that have worked for us that may help others. but we do not identify (diagnose) what problems are in others.
in......me...... what you described my own treatment providers call normal. people normally do change how close they are to friends and family and what they think and feel about their self. a big part of this is the things like what we go through, experience, how our body works physically, how the senses interpret what we are experiencing and more...(your own doctors may be able to explain this in more direct terms of what you are going through if this is the same in you as it is me.)
In me my dissociative disconnections were and are related to triggers. you know how if someone says something that you dont like it makes you feel mad. my dissociation was and is like that..... something happens first then because of that something I start feeling numb, spaced out and disconnected (disconnected meaning not really participating / just sitting by watching and at the same time unfeeling, unemotional.)
example in the department store yesterday while I was buying one of my children a pair of new shoes, another shopper accidentally bumped into me. getting bumped by the stranger caused me to dissociate (feel emotionally numb to the point where I could not physically feel my body, Oh I knew I had a body, if I didnt I wouldnt be alive and breathing and shopping in a store with my child but I was disconnected (emotionless, unfeeling, numb, spaced out)
the getting bumped was the trigger and the dissociating was the reaction to that trigger.
my suggestion is if this continues to bother you, contact your doctors who can make the diagnosis of what is going on in you and get you treated for it so that you will soon feel better.