Hi sweetheart, You are so kind. Thank you. I'm doing okay, although definitely having intense shades of mood.

My appointments (therapist then pdoc) are at 2 this afternoon, so 6 more hours Pacific time.

I'm having a lot of insight into what's going on with me and I am so looking forward to getting input from therapist & pdoc. I cannot live in that "flat" state, so we'll have to come up with alternatives.

I have always hated my hypersensitivity and wanted to get rid of it. Just this week I have begun to value it - for the first time in my life. I've looked at people I admire, people who inspire me, and what do you know? They are very sensitive people. I feel that I need to stop being afraid of my own emotions and stop feeling shame when I express myself. I need to find glory in my emotion and in my expression of emotion.

So. I will be back with an update later today.