With trying not to binge and purge, I'm more aware of the feelings that drive my ED.

Here's a list of feelings that drive me to B&P:

Loneliness- not having any friends
Failure- loosing my job 7 months ago and not being able to find any work
Fear/ anxiety- my abuse memories
Escape- feeling like I need to run away and not be any more trouble to everyone who knows me

Tonight I feel like I need to escape, run away. The feeling crawls up my back.