I am sorry you lost your friend. When I was first diagnosised with seizure disorder I lost a lot of friends who decided they were afraid to be around me. The dumb part of that is I don't have grand mal seizures, only partial loss of awareness for a few minutes, and I had had them lots of times in their presence and they never knew it. But it hurt something terrible when they dropped our friendship. One thing you can count on is we will never drop you as a on-line friend. We are all holding hands here, keeping each one safe from loneliness and we will not let go. So hang on and know that we care and that we understand your heart ache and pain.