I'm not really qualified to give advice or say anything on IP experience, but I will say this sounds like a grass is always greener on the other side kind of thing and that's kinda normal. I definitely have been there actually, had those feelings. It's what you do with em that matters. Now you've had this experience and you can make it your goal to get well to stay out of IP if that's what you want. It sounds like you might need to talk about this a bit more in IP, in which case, make the most of your time there. Hang in there!