Y'know what else t, and I feel guilty about this, but honestly, I mean I love coming there and all but there's other stuff I want to do too - but can't afford to do both - and I'm starting to want the other stuff more than you. I feel guilty about that because I feel like I owe you so much. Why do I feel like I owe you more than I've already paid? What is still wrong with me that I actually feel guilty for feeling better than I did when we started?