I've given that a great deal of thought lately..trying to identify... the why.. so I can replace the behavior with something else...

being lonely
frustration with my ED... wanting to travel...but not healthy enough -
wanting to be away from my surroundings....
anxiety..... being scared...the PTSD
dealing with mean people...... people that take advantage....
not having anyone to take care of....

yes.. I so understand the wanting to run away... my anxiety is thru the roof.. cause.. this is day 2... of not doing the binge/purge...
the phone rang.. I screamed.. (help me... so on edge)