A more recent thing I have noticed, I've been starting to feel a great deal of depression. Nothing seems to make me smile, my chest is being crushed by some unknown weight, and I'm very uninspired to get up and even walk around. I'm not sure what's sparked this... but I believe it may have something to do with my dissociative disorder.

Not being able to remember certain things has really bummed me out. It makes me feel useless and worth nothing more than a pile of trash. I keep forgetting birthdays and names, and important meetings and events, even though I keep a calendar AND a journal to remember such things. I've been uninspired to write in it... and it hasn't made me feel the absolute best. It's as if I've let down myself... Moreso, it's exactly what I'm doing. Letting myself down, as I've done to everyone around me.

I'm not exactly sure why I'm writing this... maybe to answer the question in the title? Or maybe because it makes me feel a little better writing this out... Thank you for all of you who are on here. You're all very important people to me.