Sending positivity your way! I was married for 18 years and I left and we divorced.

I’m also disabled. I met a wonderful man several years ago. It was at a bipolar and depression support group I used to facilitate. He’s also disabled. I’m extremely happy and vice-versa, been together several years. I’d been a member of the group for five years before I met him. It was just by chance...

I think a balance is needed in all relationships. I didn’t expect my (ex) husband to truly understand...but, yes, I wanted him to learn about bipolar disorder. I was treatment compliant and doing my best...he refused to go to my appointments with my psychiatrist, not one time. He didn’t like me on meds. Meds save my life. I won’t go on, he wasn’t “all in” so I exited stage right, no regrets.

I know being disabled brings in very little money, SSDI. Yet, it is what it is. It sounds like you’re concerned. Every bit counts. I quit smoking, for example. Saving so much now I don’t have the daily habit. Safeguarding myself from manic spending sprees....a big one for me. Separating wants versus needs. Giving thoughtful, yet less expensive gifts. Stuff like that.

Having a support system....we are here but get involved in a support group if you haven’t done so. Highly recommend it. I found mine on meetup.com but DBSA and NAMI have info, too. I remember us brainstorming at meetings when a member needed housing ... she and another member ended up getting an apartment together and it worked out great.

These are just ideas, not solutions. Sending positivity your way. I have hard times, definitely, but good times, too. The past is gone, live for today, so not worry about what is out of your control.

You’re not helpless, you don’t have to go this alone. I get very anxious so I do relate and empathize with you. I hope for the best, prepare for the worst.

I recommend being in treatment, I need meds and therapy, but others here get by without, You know what is best for you.

Couples counseling is definitely worth a shot if your relationship is strained and you both want to work on improving it. I’m trying to get out more, I have agoraphobia and my partner doesn’t. He’s extroverted and I’m a homebody. However, I push myself a bit unless it’s a very hard time ... we do something like dinner out. You are working part-time, that’s great if your health permits it!

I hope this helped. I saw your thread had gone to the second page and you needed support. You need replies. So, I’m sending my best and bumping you, too. lol