So dope! Cheers for sharing your experiences and for helping me understand the terms better and how others are uing those labels to identify themselves. What I gather from your post is that you use those label as a way to define how you feel around actual people? In my situation when its around actual people, I feel no such attraction be it romantic or sexual for women at all. I would think that the porn and thoughts on and off would point to a desire but it doesnt. Interestingly, for the past week I have started a journey to no porn and so far what its showing is what I wrote about on my first post which is that lesbian thoughts and masturbation only seem to be inspired after viewing porn or lesbian erotic content. Outside of such stimulus the desire to think of women is not there. When I think of men, I dont need porn or erotic straight content to provide a stimulus, it happens organically and I think more than anything combined by the research I've been doing on sexuality including reading sex therapists views, I am starting to see that I may have conditioned myself with the whole lesbian porn/erotic content to form a habit and this explains the 15 year on and off. Mind you, I have never thought or analysed this 15 year habit so as you can gather I lived life organically letting things flow. I never analysed if I liked women or if I was in denial. I just lived life and in no where in those 15 years have a desire for women in actual form presented itself. I have never noticed a woman on the street and felt an arousal or even got to know a woman who I felt an romantic desire for. Women have always felt to me like sisters and remain so.

Again cheers. This past week, things have started to become clearer to me.