I'm just blowing off steam I guess. I don't really have any friends, and when things go on in my chaotic life, that's when I realize how alone I am.

I'm 40 and I'm solely responsible for my Narcissistic Dad who is now 88 years old, legally blind, has dementia and is on 24 hour oxygen due to his COPD. When I realized I didn't have what it took to care for him, I placed him in an Assisted Living Facility and I work two jobs to make sure that his rent is covered.

Dad is a disabled vet, so he gets monthly checks which I use to help pay for his care. Well, the Veteran's Association screwed up. There's some paperwork that needs to be filled out so Dad's checks will continue to be direct deposited into his account, and they sent it to the wrong address. I was NEVER notified about this, so Dad's rent check bounced because he didn't have enough money in his account.

I've literally spent ALL DAY on the phone to no avail and I have no help. I'm trying to see if I can take money out of my 401K to cover the expenses (and pay the tax penalty) because they screwed up.

I want to cry I want to scream I wish someone would just listen. Dad has 13 children. I'm the ONLY one who got stuck with his care. I'm codependent as hell, and resent even being placed in this position.

My life wasn't much before taking on Dad's care, but now it's nothing. All I do is work. I have no social life, no friends, I haven't dated in two years. I'm just overwhelmed.

Sometimes I think my baby brother was onto something when he took his own life, but I can't even do that. Someone has to take care of Dad.

OK... I'm done now.