Itīs often said that you should talk to the therapist about the relationship and if there are things that doesnīt feel good in therapy or if there is something to change.
So I did and I didnīt have any specific critique but wanting my T to express more understanding and to focus on things I tell her, not just rush into solutions or the "next step" in things.
I like talked and talked and of course she added some comments to it but now afterwards I just feel it was like convincing her to continue therapy. It was not that she had said we should quit but she earlier said she was a little hesitant about being the right therapist for me.
I did much of what she should have been doing, talking about alternatives, showing that I also appreciate what sheīs doing, I tried to be considerate in what I told her and so on.
But afterwards I just feel she doesnīt care, she didnīt made any effort to show that she wants to adapt, even if she didnīt say she wouldnīt adapt. It was like convincing her to continue therapy by showing I can accept different things and put it in a perspective.
I really felt like e-mailing her today and say I quit, Iīve done what a client should do; bring things up, being honest and so on. I know Iīd feel bad about waiting for an answer to my e-mail and then having to process it all on my own when she confirms we quit therapy. I wish I could just go on after ending it, not caring but unfortunately thatīs not reality.
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