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Originally Posted by justafriend306
Must you socialise? Consider for yourself the degree to which you are capable of doing so. While I encourage you to give socialising a good try I am aware that this is something that can only be done on one's own terms. Your task then is to recognise and acknowledge these terms. This may mean resisting what those around you - as helpful as they are trying to be - are trying to force you into.
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On my own terms, I hadn't thought about it that way. I think right now my main priority is to make a consistent effort to seek therapy (which I have failed to do in the past) and my energy is all geared towards preparing myself for that challenge. Socializing right now seems like an obligation and I'd rather focus that energy on myself, at least for this month.
At least one friend I get to see her weekly, mostly because she is paying me lol but we were friends before that. We get to share our MH progress and that's so necessary for me, but I think that's all I can tolerate right now.
I also think because my friends still smoke pot and drink, while I've been sober for several months, I don't feel like dealing with that right now.
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My heart is down on its knees
And no one is hearing screaming
There's always something that's pulling me down, down, down
And this is nothing new...
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