I noticed about half an hour ago that I was in self hatred mode in my head. In this mode I think of all of the reasons I should hate myself, and why others should, too. I noticed it before I dragged myself down and got stuck in that state. I found it interesting that I went from feeling secure in session, to needy after session (from getting better), and then to self hatred mode. It makes so much sense. Just noticing it made it go away. Now I'm trying not to think of the thoughts I was thinking. I am going for a walk as soon as my IPOD is charged enough to last the whole walk. I appreciate your unwaivering support,