Sleep is a very hot and cold thing for me. When my sleep is NOT experiencjng states of disruptions- I love it, it is my escape from whtever I an feeling and just- its wonderful, like a reset button.

But when I have problems with my sleep its really bad- it usually comes in waves/periods-and I hate it and avoid sleeping. Thats been happening lately. Usually my sleep problems are hallucinations. Lately they have included false awakenings and maybe sleep paralysis. Whatever it is is like... nightmares with multiple layers of hell which- I keep THINKING Im awake but keep being reminded... by something horrible... like my death AGAIN in a dream... that Im not.

Its scary. And really frustrating. And it makes me not want to sleep.

The problem is... sleep deprivation zaps whatever energy I have to deal with EVERYTHING ELSE. So thats not good. Today was hard. Tomorrow...

Either Ill sleep tonight and face possible terror or Ill not sleep and be sleep deprived all the while knowing sleep is a human need Ill need to fill eventually.

Anyways. So Ill probably sleep.

Im just frustrated
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Any of you ever experience weird sleep issues?