Dear t, I just drafted the email I'm going to send you canceling the 12th and the 26th. Please accept it gracefully ok? Because I'm also asking to reconvene in mid-May. I don't know why this has me all in knots. Well I guess actually I do know. Because of course I wish I didn't have to. But I just won't have the $$ to pay you. I mean I'm glad we paid the bills off, I hated how they didn't send them and didn't send them and knowing it was hanging over our heads.... but at the same time I'm kinda bummin' cuz it means I can't see you this month and I probably won't be able to go to the Dream thing in June that I'd been so looking forward to either. Oh well. There's always next year for that, I guess. At least I'll have the $$ to see you again in May. Although if I don't see you in May either, then I'll have $200 for the thing in June... hmm. Hmm. I really should tell you that I'm starting to want to use the $200 a month I've been paying you for other things...