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Originally Posted by Pookyl
My GP always says to me that I’m remarkably well given everything that’s wrong with me. For me it works better to consider myself ‘sick’. Although my goal at the beginning of each day is to be as well as possible.
I have so many things wrong with me that I need ‘labels’. And I need them to survive. For example, if I hadn’t passed on a ‘label’ to the surgeon last week I’d either be in ICU or dead.
I’m someone who is not compliant with managing my bipolar unless I consider myself sick. Although just to confuse the issue I don’t run around saying I’m sick, I’m sick  |
I have so many physical ailments and conditions — sicknesses requiring medical interventions such as medications and surgeries after surgeries — that I consider myself mentally sick, as well, needing medications and psychotherapy interventions, some on an hourly basis.
“Heart disease” is a general label, I suppose, and yet I have 11 different types of active heart disease. And I’m an active diabetic. And I have 6 different types of ongoing mental disorders. As much as I would love saying that oedema isn’t a result of congestive heart failure, well, it is. And my monthly spending sprees that put me in incredible debt are resultant because of risky behavior associated with mania.
Always manic/always delusional.
I am actively bipolar, actively (sigh, again) schizoaffective, actively borderline, actively anxious, actively agoraphobic, etc.
It would be nonsense if I were to say, “I don’t have a dozen stents in my heart. I don’t have one stent in both my left and right carotid arteries.” Just as nonsensical if I were to say, “I’m not bipolar.”
“I don’t hallucinate. I’m not delusional.” I would be so much more in denial if I denied delusions and hallucinations and stents and surgeries and fainting and all of the other crap so I’m gonna stick with the word ‘sick’ for those who care.