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Originally Posted by Unbrokensoulgeron
So to sum things up, I figured out me getting unwell was inevitable as I had a faulty gene. Because of my hectic lifestyle, I may have set it off early but I will never know entirely.
Getting beat at my sport was a blessing in disguise because I could not have handled the negative attention when my bi-polar hit a peak. At least my melt down happened at home.
So my doctor was right that a lot of my psychosis was stress induced and environmental. But I was unlucky enough to have the predisposed gene that combined with all the stressors and bang, it was set off. And once it had been activated, there is no cure. But it is a manageable condition.
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The doctor asked me what was my earliest childhood memory. I wad a bit overwhelmed with the hustle and bustle of the psyche ward and also my mood had plummeted after my break from reality. This was the last thing on earth I wanted to re visit. So I explained I need space.
In one session she tried a different approach and said that she actually thought I was quite bright. She hadn't sat down with my parents and boyfriend to find out about my background. Why didn't she ask me??!
So I wrote out a hap hazard list of my credentials . No computer and printer and showed it to a staff member. Impressive qualifications for a shelf stacker she said. What do you really want to do? So my judgement hadn't quite returned to normal so on a walk up town I showed a little shop business that dealt with heath products and they took it politely and smiled saying they will take a read. Any normal business owner would have had a laugh at this but I have a feeling they were more a "oh bless their cotton socks" kind of lady.
I then out of boredom wrote some poems and one nurse found time to type it up for me because it ryhmed in parts. I remember the English tests having options to write a poem and I would think I could never achieve that in a million years on his earth.