This is interesting. The rest of your post sounded very positive. But this part I think is selfish , and your just living a lie. Why do I say that ? Because it hits home for me. When I got so lonely I worked my way back into my ex’s life.
Yes , I just wanted a warm body next to me. Then I find how emotionally distant she is from me. Then I just get the feeling that I’m only here to help pay the bills. That kinda sucks as I feel the relationship is not honest. I don’t like being used. I’m building up a resentment. And that I believe will wind me back alone.
Your husband may be emotionally distant, but do you know why ?
The way you talk about him is disgusting to me. Why , because I’m that person !
Get honest, get connected with him and want him more than just being “ another breathing body in the room”. You sound like a user and get no sympathy from here. You will probably wind up alone again.