hey t. i'm thinking again this morning about where my guilt comes from about canceling this month and starting to want to spend my $ on other things and not come there anymore. i think maybe a good chunk of it is - i feel like i owe you staying in therapy because you moved back here! but, it's not my job to take care of you.

of course there's also the obvious i adore you thing, but that's not a valid reason to stay in therapy either.

and i'd miss you, miss our relationship if i left. but that also is not a valid reason to stay in therapy.

i think i need one last thing from you. help me leave.